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I think you're way underestimating

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yourself.

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That's not the first time

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that I've been told something kind of along those lines. Fuck college.

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Like, college is a fucking scam. They get people to pay hundreds of thousands of

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dollars to get kids to hate their parents

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and give them an excuse

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to party and smoke weed and have like

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promiscuous sex while someone else paying like hundreds of thousands of dollars for the privilege of them, like, doing that.

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And it doesn't do anything for you career wise whatsoever. Having a low ticket membership is great.

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You can have lots of people there, but then the money is not in the low ticket membership.

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The money is in the higher ticket stuff that you do on the back end of that.

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But, like, it's awesome to have it as a fund.

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There are totally people who are making a million bucks a month or more in coaching.

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And, honestly, Calvin, I'm dead ass going to be one of them.

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Like, that really is not even in question. It's totally doable, and you fucking deserve it.

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That money is good with you. It's better with you than so many other places that money could go.

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Welcome to the show. I got today

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Nikki Jones. So excited to meet Nikki because I don't know anything really about you

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yet.

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Yes. So,

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excited to see you. Where are you tell us about yourself. Where are you at?

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What do you do for business? Who do you serve? What do you help them with? Where are you at?

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What do you wanna be? Yeah. All the fun stuff. So I'm based in St. Louis, Missouri.

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In my past life, I trained as a professional dancer, hip hop dancer.

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And starting, I guess, 2023,

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I did start my entrepreneur journey. So I opened up a virtual assistance business,

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and currently, I'm actually transitioning

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a little bit. So building more on my personal brand.

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So I consider myself a personal development guide, and I lead hardworking women from turning their personal and professional goals

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into action. So whether that's through building structure, building habits,

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and also setting intentions in our personal development community.

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So that's where I'm at right now, and, I'm excited to be chatting with you today.

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Excellent.

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So good.

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So, yeah, where's the so

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the virtual assistant business, and then you said personal development

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guide. Is that what you said? Mhmm. What you said? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Okay.

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I just make I just make up stuff. You know?

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That's that's the way to do it.

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Okay. So been in business for, like, about three years.

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Yeah. And how long you've been doing the personal development guide thing?

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So that just launched this year of 2026.

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So it's super fresh. Very early stages.

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Amazing.

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Okay. So,

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yeah, where's the bit and that's the piece that you wanna focus on going forward, I I'm assuming.

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Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So, really, my goal is,

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and I guess a little bit of backstory so you kinda understand where I'm coming from and where I'm at.

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after I pretty much let go of dancing,

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now realized there was a lot of, like, self trust that was lost, a lot of lack of confidence.

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So as I moved back home from Los Angeles

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mind you, I was literally 19.

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Like, I'm like a little baby just trying to figure it all out.

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So when I moved home, I was very unclear of, like,

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who am I? What am I doing with my life? What's my purpose?

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I have always kind of been good at a bunch of different things, you know, that jack of all trades.

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my boss at the dance studio was like, hey.

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Can you help me with some techy stuff and social media and whatever?

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So I helped her, and I would kind of freelance and help some other people I knew. And,

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eventually, you know, my boss was like, you're really great at this. This could be a business.

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Whatever. And because I was so unclear of, like, who I was, I was like, sure.

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Let's just go ahead and do it. You know?

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So that's how I kinda stumbled into starting my first business

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quickly realized that while I'm good at stuff, that doesn't necessarily mean that I have a passion for it.

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So my goal

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I'm sure a lot of us can relate.

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So my goal is to build out where my passion lies in personal development and with my next level collective community

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so I can start releasing

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the VA business.

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Mhmm. So that is my focus, and that's the goal. Got it.

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So you're still dependent on the VA business for income right now? Yeah.

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And the VA business is like you being the VA. It's not like

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Primarily. I have one contractor. Yeah. I have one contractor, and that was kind of part of

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the deciding factor too was that I couldn't really figure out a way to

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scale it without it being an agency.

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And I was like, Nikki, do I really wanna do that? Like, not really. So I get it. Yeah.

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Yeah. I was, like, way back in the day, I started a software consulting company.

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It's like the agency, basically. We did programming for hire, and I was like,

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I never I ended up with, like, 13 employees, and I'm like, I never wanted to be in that business.

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I wanted to be in a product business, not in a service business. And, yeah. It was it was like Yeah.

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Literally, like, immediately, I was like, I don't wanna use anymore. I changed my mind. No.

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It's a whole it's a whole other game. Yeah. Yep. No. That's cool. I like that.

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But I like your I like your your whole attitude and demeanor.

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Like, you're clearly someone who's like like, you throw yourself in the initiative and figure it out.

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And then you're like, okay. This is, like, this is great. This is not so great.

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Let's let's try to adjust some things. Like, I love that.

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This is only about next level what do you call it? Collective?

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Next level collective. Yeah. So it is a

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personal development community

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for hardworking women who are tired of overthinking,

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and they want the structure. They want support.

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And most importantly, they want real time action so they actually

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follow through on their goals.

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as I really started stepping into it and, you know, I'm thinking about what's the mission, what's the purpose,

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I really just wanted something

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that I would have wanted

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three, five years ago. Right?

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Before knowing everything I know now and having all the ambition, the drive,

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and just kind of needing hand holding and all transparency.

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You know? Like and you probably relate to this.

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Like, I quickly discovered, like, entrepreneurship just felt really lonely,

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especially when, like,

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you don't really have a circle of friends or a network

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that do that. You know? Like, all of my friends have had

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standard nine to fives, you know, and that works for them.

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But it's like, when I go to talk about what I do or I need help or

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whatever, it gets really lonely. And,

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you kinda get stuck on this hamster wheel of, like, wearing all the hats and really not being able to get out of it because

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you think you have to do it all alone. At least that's what

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I kind of was struggling with. So

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I really just want

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and that's kind of what's cool about it now.

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You also find that my brain is like, woo, squirrel.

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But, like, I was having this conversation. But

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I really

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just want it to be a space where it can grow and evolve into whatever it needs to be.

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Like, right now, I have it's super tiny. We have six members,

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and I want 25 founding members. So they're kind of helping me shape this,

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and form it. We have conversations.

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I get their input and insights, and maybe they have ideas, figure out what's working, what's not.

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So that's the current stage that it's in.

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And already, it's so much better than, like, how I started that VA business.

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Like, doing it all alone, figuring it all out to where I'm like, no.

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Like, this is what this is meant for is to lean on each other, support each other, and help each other,

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and hold each other accountable

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as well. So Mhmm. Yeah. Cool. What what's the price point of the thing?

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Right now, founding members are 25 a month

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grandfathered in. And,

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we'll see about after the fact. I'm thinking once I get a good

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foundation and structure to it, it'll be 45 a month is what I'm thinking.

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So you're bringing in a whopping $150

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a month from this thing. So I can I I mean, that covers rent,

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gas, insurance?

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Yeah. Right?

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Like, eating out four nights a week. Like, you're, like, jewelry, new clothes.

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Like, you you're Check. Check. Check. Right?

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I'm living the dream, like I said. Right.

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can see that.

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Yeah. Alright. Fair enough.

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Look. Gotta start somewhere.

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And, you know, it's funny it's funny that we're we're talking about the price point because, the couple mentors I have here locally are like Nikki,

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like, sister. Come on.

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And to me, like, for one, I know everything can always change and evolve. So I'm like, shit.

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This could pop off. I totally the vision

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nationwide,

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potentially worldwide. Like, I'm a very big visionary, so I'm like, I see where it can go.

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Mhmm. And for me, it's like a comfortable starting point.

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It's almost stupid low enough to where it's like, why wouldn't you try it and see if it's a fit?

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Why wouldn't you wanna give your 2¢?

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And, obviously, the goal is to go above this at at some point. So Yeah. Who's that?

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Tell me about the members. There's six. So why they give me some of them. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So

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there's six total, and I'll tell you there are three very active ones that show up every day.

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So I'm gonna kinda focus on those because I

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they're there every day. So Yeah.

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These gals,

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all three of them are entrepreneurs.

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All three of them happen to be moms. I'm actually not a mom, but they are.

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And I'd say most of them are, like, late twenties, early thirties

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is their is their range, and

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they have the work ethic. You know, they show up.

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They're kind of like the they don't have a problem being busy.

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Mhmm. But they have a problem

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internally, or there's, like, the negative self talk or the self doubt.

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So I'm finding those are kind of some of the common denominators amongst them right now. Yeah.

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Okay. Entrepreneurs,

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small business, big business?

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Small business. All of them. Yeah. Kind of early early stage starting out?

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Yeah. So one is pretty early.

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The other one is, kind of developing.

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Like, it's she's had it for a few years, but still, like, working on scaling it.

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And then the other one is actually right now in a transitional period of releasing what she was doing and stepping more into entrepreneurship.

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And Sounds like someone I know. Hey. What

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do you know? I literally like my ICA, like, to be honest.

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Like, literally. Yeah.

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Alright. So cool. Okay.

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So how did you get into this?

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Shoot.

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How did I get into this? That's such

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a thought provoking question.

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I know for sure, like, I've always kind of been a nerd for personal development.

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So between, like, kind of just reading different books and stuff, like, it always fascinated me.

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But I think the real, like, relevant point is in high school, I remember taking

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psychology.

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And I always do, like, well in school, but I, like, actually really liked psychology.

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Like, I was fascinated and

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decided not to go to college and do the dance thing instead.

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wish hey. You know? No. No. No. I'm serious. Smart move. I mean, thank you.

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I'm glad I did it because that was the time to do it. Yeah. So let me let me just

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jump in right there and just say,

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it's my fucking podcast. I can jump in. Yes.

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No. This is so my my my mom.

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Oh. My wife. My wife.

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Close. No. I don't know what the fuck before I didn't slip that was. But hey. All good. No judgment.

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My wife is a dancer, and she she's not professional, but she's a dancer.

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And she's been deep in that in that world,

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in the Latin American ballroom dancing world. Yeah. And, like,

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what I'm seeing is, like, all of the people who are in, like, the serious ones, the ones that are, like,

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they're very good people.

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Mhmm. They're very good people. You don't become a great dancer

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if you're not a very good person.

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Like, just like there's work ethic, there's discipline, there's like, you gotta look at your fucking shit.

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You gotta figure out dynamics to people human dynamics, teamwork. Yep. You gotta play the game.

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Like, there's so many levels to this. It's like Yeah. It's fucking great education. It really is.

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And you have to do it from a young age, so you have to learn these things from a young age to get somewhere.

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So I'm not very serious about that. It's a I fuck college. Like, college is a fucking scam.

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It's complete

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bullshit scam. Thank you. And how are you I mean, literally, look at me.

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I literally did that and was so set. Like, no one could tell me shit.

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I was going to dance for the rest of my life. At least I thought so at 18.

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And now and now I'm 28, and I tried a bunch of different shit. I'm like, how am I how is any

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18 year old supposed to make one decision on what they're gonna do for the rest of their lives?

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I've never understood that. Like, that's insane to me. And No. College college is a scam where

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they get people to pay hundreds of thousands of dollars

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to get kids to hate their parents

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and give them, like, an excuse to, like, party and smoke weed and have, like, promiscuous sex for, like, five years.

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Insane. Like like child.

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Yes. Exactly. For real.

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While someone else paying, like, hundreds of thousands of dollars for the privilege of them, like, doing that.

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It's like and it doesn't

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do anything for you career wise whatsoever.

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So yeah. That's Smart choice. Thank you for that. Speaks volumes.

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Yeah. And it's it was like it's so interesting.

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And I always say, like, of course, I I totally don't regret it.

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Like, for me to go and move out across the country again, I'm in Missouri.

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My mom, I told her, I was like, I'm going to LA, mom. I'm gonna do it. And she was like, oh my god.

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Like, what?

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And I just did. And it was, like, the most

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humbling experience.

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Right?

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Mind you, real great dancers start when they're pretty fucking young.

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I started in high school, a freshman in high school. That's not I mean, I I learned really well.

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I'm very coachable, so I'm like, awesome.

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But going out there

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and I don't know I don't know if your wife, like, is familiar kind of with, like, LA.

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Has she lived out there at any point? No. We were in New York.

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We just we we're in Alabama now, but we just got here. So Okay. Nice. Nice. So

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I had noticed, you know, 18 years old, my parents weren't paying my rent.

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I think my phone bill, they were helping me with that,

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and the rest was on me. So, I figured out very quickly

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how challenging it was to pursue a dance career,

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getting random

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calls to audition in twenty minutes, right, to

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taking classes consistently and building relationships, like, it was so challenging doing that while having a full time job.

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It I I personally

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couldn't find the balance.

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And the more people I met and was around, they at least the ones that I knew, like, they had a lot of support back at home, which is a blessing.

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But I'm like, no fucking wonder they can go and take class on at fucking noon in the middle of the week every day.

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You know what I'm saying? So I was just like, okay. That's pretty humbling.

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So there's that. But then for two,

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going to the auditions. Right?

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And let's be honest. I wasn't as good as I thought I was, and I can see that now.

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But, like, going to the auditions

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and hearing, thank you for your time. Thank you for your time. Thank you for your time.

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And getting cut

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every single time, it starts to fuck with your head a little bit.

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Like, it starts to fuck with your confidence. You start questioning, like,

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am I good at all? Well, I don't. But, like, if you can tell it again, but say I.

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I?

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Yeah. Yeah. He's starting to fuck with your head. For

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sure. For sure. And thank you for that. Because that is what I was going through, you know?

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And and it was, like,

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finally deciding, like, I

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just don't think I can pursue this.

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Even I had a friend actually who was, like, touring, and she was, like, booked.

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Like, that bitch was booked. She was killing it. And I was like, what's going on? How's it going?

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And she's like, I still don't know how I'm gonna pay rent. So I realized, okay. They're not even

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at least at the level that I was at, not making even the money that I thought to live this extravagant financially free life.

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Like, I was humbled in every fucking way possible.

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And I was and I'm so grateful for it. So

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I don't really know where I was going with that, but that's a bit of the background.

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I think oh, I know. No. But

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I mean, but it says a lot about you. Right?

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Like, you're just like, I'll figure it the fuck out, and you did.

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And, like, how do you make that work? It's hard. Yeah. Like

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Yeah.

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For sure. Job. Like and,

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the the

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I don't know to what extent, but it sounded a little bit like that might be a, like, oh, shit.

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I wish I had gone to college or I shit like, whatever. Like, that kinda thing.

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Like, people who did go to college have something I don't or whatever. Like,

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any I crossed my mind for sure.

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You can let go of all of that fucking bullshit because you got a way better education.

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And, like, oh, I wish my parents had had the money to support me. Finds like, no.

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You got a fucking great education. Like, this is this is Experience.

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I got, like, hands on experience is the best learning

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you could ask for. You're not gonna learn any other way but doing. And

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and I it it is kind of cool, though.

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So, like, moving back home and being unsure of myself and, like, who the fuck am I?

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Like, I was so set on this. Now what? Like, literally, now what? And

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when I had the VA business, I actually did have a coach.

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And so she was helping me grow it, and it got better and better and better.

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And she always, like,

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praised me. She was always like, Nikki, you're awesome.

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I never have to remind you to fucking, like, send in your homework to me or whatever.

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I don't have to do that with you. Like, you're just killing it. You're great.

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And one of our coaching sessions, like, low key turned into a therapy session.

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Like, I'm literally sitting here crying to her because I feel so unfulfilled,

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even with everything that I was doing. And she was

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like, Nikki, if you don't stop self sabotaging, like, you're never going you're never gonna reach, like, your potential ultimately.

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Mhmm.

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And that was the conversation we had.

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And at the time, I actually had a client I've already been working with for at least two years at that point,

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and she trains,

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NLP.

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I don't know if you're familiar with neurolinguistic

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programming. So she trains it here in my city.

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She's my client.

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I've been familiar with it, but never enough to feel like it was relevant or something I needed

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until my coach at the time who had gone through it.

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She was like, you need you need to consider this.

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Like, you don't see what other people see, and there's a lot of internal work that needs to be done.

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So

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I went through the whole training last year of 2025,

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at least this one here in Saint Louis. I know there's probably a bunch of others, but

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the internal work, I mean, that shit is insane.

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Like, I get I still practice and implement everything I've learned because there was so much, but it's like

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talk about full circle. When I said I literally was obsessed with psychology

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in high school to come back and still be intertwined with the mind, neuroscience, and all of that now,

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that to me feels like I'm on I'm on the right path.

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I feel very aligned with what I'm doing because it was a passion, like, a decade ago.

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You know what I'm saying? So that's been kind of cool to experience.

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So Yeah.

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Yeah. Fantastic.

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And so, yeah, my question was, like, how you got into this, the personal development thing?

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Yeah.

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So,

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again, throughout all of this, I've done my own personal development with, like, different books and and and stuff like that.

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And when I started the NLP journey, I think that's when

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I got kind of real with myself and just kinda got curious. It's like, what even is the goal?

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What is the desire? Where is the passion? And I was like,

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I fucking love personal development, and it's helped me.

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And who the fuck doesn't need personal development? Like, literally.

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And I want a space that I wish I had.

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So starting the NLP training is kind of when this light bulb went up, like, ding.

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Like, Nikki, what do you really want? What do you really wanna do?

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And intertwining personal development, something I was a part of my day to day Mhmm.

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And being able to grow an income stream with it,

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to trust myself and build upon something.

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Like, it felt like something I could really scale to where the VA business felt like something I couldn't.

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So that was also appealing to me as well.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Cool. Yeah. So, like, so where do you wanna take this thing?

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Right? Like, what I don't know. What do you wanna talk about? What do we No.

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I mean, where do you wanna take the business?

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Oh, you're like, what do you wanna chat about? I was like, I don't know. Yeah.

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The vision.

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So

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the next level I I really wanna build upon a personal brand. Next level, Nick, is the brand itself.

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I see the next level collective as the foundation,

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kind of the entry point where anyone, anywhere

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can be a part of and grow.

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As they build rapport

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with me, I see myself doing maybe group cohorts,

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one on one work,

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utilizing the NLP and actually really being able to dive into that with individuals.

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Mhmm. And public speaking.

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Public speaking, I wanna build enough of a reputation

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that I get to have opportunities

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like that as well,

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which naturally, I feel like once you kind of have the reputation and that rapport with

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a good enough size network, that's one other great opportunities, brand partnerships.

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And, you know, it's like,

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it's so it probably sounds really ambiguous,

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but I do. I kind of see finding a way to intertwine all of

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the fun things in life I consider fun,

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into my personal brand. So Mhmm. In a very vague way,

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that's my vision.

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Mhmm. Yeah.

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Okay.

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I'm gonna follow my my I have I have I

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have

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an arc in mind here. I'm gonna follow my intuition here for a sec Okay. Yeah. Yeah.

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To get this somewhere.

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Tell me just a little bit. Like, what was it about what was it like for Nikki growing up?

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Oh,

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okay. Let's get it. Let's get it. Okay. So

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Nikki growing up.

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Nikki is like the Nikki you see now. I feel like I I naturally am, like,

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pretty bubbly, pretty, like, glass half full kind of personality.

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Although my environment was very much the opposite. So I grew up in a very abusive household.

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Are you living literally at home right now? Like, you're in your parents' house?

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Or Well, so right now, I'm at home. We're saving for a house.

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But growing, my mom had me at 19. Mhmm. So I actually grew up a lot around my grandparents.

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Mhmm. And they actually adopted two boys

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who they're technically uncles, but I'm older than them. So we kind of grew up like siblings.

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And so They adopted two boys that were

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also blood relatives or no?

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No. No. So not blood relatives, but they they're, like, a year and two years younger than me.

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So it's always been kinda weird because it's, like, they're my uncles, but

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we grew up like siblings because I was over there with them so much.

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And,

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this is so crazy because I've actually never really talked about this publicly. So hey.

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Yeah. Very abusive environment.

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My grandma was really abusive physically and verbally

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to,

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one of my uncles.

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And,

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yeah, saw a lot of just fucked up shit.

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And so

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which I touched on a lot in NLP training. Right? So doing that internal work and kind of confronting

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that, like, all that went down and how I stored it and then how I show up with all of that kind of in the back of my head.

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So

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yeah, I mean, growing up, it's kind of interesting because

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I saw that

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on a regular,

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but then

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we go on Disney trips, and we go to family parties, and we we do all, like, the normal family stuff.

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And it's like no one

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knows. You know?

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So I definitely was kind of, like as I got kinda older into my early teens and wasn't really over there as much.

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Right. You know, I would have conversations with my mom is like,

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what the fuck? Why why do we just act like

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this is normal? So, like, what is going on?

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I'm like, he's literally, like, black and blue right now.

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Like, what is like, he's been beaten real bad. So it's just like your grandma.

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Yeah.

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No.

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Yeah. Yeah. So where was your mom in all this?

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So

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my mom

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worked a lot,

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and also

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was abused herself

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physically.

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But so is this your mom's mom or your mom's dad? Or

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Mom's

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stepmom.

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So not blood.

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I see.

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So she So it was your mom's dad that remarried?

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Uh-huh. Okay. Yeah. Yeah. So

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that was my mom's experience. So, like, what what I So your mom was abused by whom?

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I my grandma.

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Her stepmom.

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Okay. So what's her first same woman this is the same woman we're referring to. Yeah.

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So where is your mom's mom?

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Not

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not a part

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of her life, our life. I don't even know. I've actually never met her.

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So, yeah, I have no idea where she's at. Is she is she alive or dead? Do we know?

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I I truly couldn't tell you. I'm not sure.

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It wasn't that she died when you're, like, in your childbirth or anything like that.

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She was like No. Yeah. My mom's like Here's a baby. If you take care of it, I'm off.

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Yeah. Well, also, I mean, from what I know you know, it's all perspective. So her version,

459
00:26:24.034 --> 00:26:26.774
she was also a very mentally unwell, abusive

460
00:26:27.235 --> 00:26:28.294
individual herself.

461
00:26:28.835 --> 00:26:31.095
So I think the very few interactions

462
00:26:31.955 --> 00:26:33.335
my mom and her had had

463
00:26:33.875 --> 00:26:34.774
were abusive.

464
00:26:36.929 --> 00:26:39.190
And so, yeah, my papa remarried.

465
00:26:39.490 --> 00:26:40.549
She has a stepmom.

466
00:26:41.009 --> 00:26:41.909
She's crazy,

467
00:26:42.610 --> 00:26:44.230
abusive physically and verbally.

468
00:26:44.690 --> 00:26:45.350
And so,

469
00:26:46.129 --> 00:26:50.309
yeah, I don't really know what that does to a person as someone who didn't experience

470
00:26:50.610 --> 00:26:51.990
it in that way,

471
00:26:52.825 --> 00:26:57.485
But I've had that question with her too. I was like, how can how are you, like,

472
00:26:58.105 --> 00:26:58.605
comfortable

473
00:26:59.065 --> 00:27:03.725
dropping me off over there given your experience? That was for sure a question that I had asked,

474
00:27:04.665 --> 00:27:07.885
asked. And, you know, it wasn't a straightforward answer because it's

475
00:27:08.710 --> 00:27:09.530
it's confusing.

476
00:27:10.630 --> 00:27:12.650
It's a lot it's confusing. So

477
00:27:13.510 --> 00:27:18.710
But the so they your mom and your grandparents lived in different houses but near each other?

478
00:27:18.710 --> 00:27:23.210
Or Yeah. We lived nearby. Like, we were, like, five minutes away or something. And

479
00:27:23.745 --> 00:27:27.745
and but you would spend all the time at your grandparents or some most of the time? Or

480
00:27:28.945 --> 00:27:32.485
I would say most of the time up until maybe, like,

481
00:27:32.865 --> 00:27:35.285
middle school ish, seven, eighth grade.

482
00:27:36.320 --> 00:27:37.620
So we're early years.

483
00:27:37.920 --> 00:27:41.060
I guess what you call imprint years were primarily with,

484
00:27:42.000 --> 00:27:43.040
in my grandparents' household.

485
00:27:43.040 --> 00:27:47.540
I didn't live with them, but I stayed over a lot sort of thing if my mom worked overnight or something.

486
00:27:48.385 --> 00:27:51.684
Got it. Okay. And so but your grandma

487
00:27:52.145 --> 00:27:53.684
would beat you or just verbally?

488
00:27:54.544 --> 00:27:58.164
No. That's actually what's interesting is I was actually never

489
00:27:58.705 --> 00:28:01.445
physically or verbally abused, but I watched it.

490
00:28:02.145 --> 00:28:03.770
Okay. So as I got

491
00:28:04.310 --> 00:28:07.130
older and working through the NLP stuff, I'm like,

492
00:28:07.510 --> 00:28:10.170
some guilt almost like survivor's guilt. Right? It's like,

493
00:28:11.110 --> 00:28:13.610
why did that happen, but not to me?

494
00:28:14.070 --> 00:28:18.145
Why didn't I say anything? You know? Like, why didn't that little girl stop it? You know?

495
00:28:18.145 --> 00:28:21.445
But in my brain, there was all those kind of things going on. So

496
00:28:21.825 --> 00:28:25.285
Yeah. So, like, how old were you when when this is going on?

497
00:28:27.985 --> 00:28:28.485
From,

498
00:28:28.865 --> 00:28:32.325
I don't know, four three or four to

499
00:28:34.090 --> 00:28:41.070
I think it probably stopped again when we were maybe in, like, middle school, the physical piece of it at least, like, seventh, eighth grade.

500
00:28:41.289 --> 00:28:41.789
So,

501
00:28:42.490 --> 00:28:44.590
yeah, around They're like 11, 12.

502
00:28:44.970 --> 00:28:47.149
To take me back to, like, seven year old Nikki

503
00:28:47.935 --> 00:28:49.955
in the house, like like,

504
00:28:50.415 --> 00:28:52.195
what what would it be like?

505
00:28:52.815 --> 00:28:57.055
Like like, you come home after school or, like, in like, what's going on? How does it

506
00:28:57.855 --> 00:28:59.955
Yeah. So, I mean, pretty

507
00:29:00.470 --> 00:29:02.230
pretty average, pretty normal. You know?

508
00:29:02.390 --> 00:29:06.150
You go to school, and then I would come home, and we'd all play.

509
00:29:06.150 --> 00:29:09.750
Like, we all went and played baseball in the back or football at the park.

510
00:29:09.750 --> 00:29:12.330
Like, all of that was pretty pretty standard.

511
00:29:16.165 --> 00:29:20.245
And, yeah, it would it was just kind of like a a flip of the switch. You know?

512
00:29:20.245 --> 00:29:23.705
If something happened or he did something and she didn't like it,

513
00:29:24.405 --> 00:29:25.545
I mean, screaming.

514
00:29:27.285 --> 00:29:30.905
And not just her. I mean, my papa had a temper as well, but he really wasn't

515
00:29:31.820 --> 00:29:32.560
the abuser.

516
00:29:33.660 --> 00:29:35.360
He was just a limp limp noodle.

517
00:29:35.980 --> 00:29:36.480
Literally.

518
00:29:36.780 --> 00:29:39.420
Yeah. Which I've had and I love my papa so much.

519
00:29:39.420 --> 00:29:42.700
So as I get older and I'm questioning, like, what the fuck was all of that?

520
00:29:42.700 --> 00:29:46.875
You know, I questioned a lot of, like, his role in it too for sure. So,

521
00:29:47.435 --> 00:29:51.375
I mean, yeah, that's kind of the thing. It was like an average childhood until it wasn't.

522
00:29:51.515 --> 00:29:53.535
You know, those moments where it's just, like

523
00:29:54.075 --> 00:29:55.675
Mhmm. Immediately something's wrong.

524
00:29:55.675 --> 00:30:01.135
And so whenever that would kind of happen, it's like you you feel like this isn't okay. You know?

525
00:30:01.595 --> 00:30:02.255
Not me.

526
00:30:02.850 --> 00:30:07.910
I I felt like thank you. I felt like, you know, something's not right. Something's

527
00:30:08.770 --> 00:30:13.010
off, and I still didn't know what to do about it. Like, I didn't have the words. I didn't have

528
00:30:14.385 --> 00:30:18.065
I considered the courage, you know, to, like like, fuck. What if that happens to me?

529
00:30:18.065 --> 00:30:20.885
Or, like, I don't fucking know. Like, what's going on? So

530
00:30:21.505 --> 00:30:25.525
yeah. But other than that, it was kind of normal. The only other maybe

531
00:30:26.545 --> 00:30:27.925
abnormal piece was

532
00:30:29.010 --> 00:30:31.430
that same uncle. He got bullied a lot

533
00:30:31.810 --> 00:30:33.270
at school and in the neighborhood.

534
00:30:33.650 --> 00:30:35.110
So there was plenty of, like,

535
00:30:35.410 --> 00:30:38.550
fighting. Like, I fought, you know, kids in the neighborhood

536
00:30:38.930 --> 00:30:40.230
to to defend him.

537
00:30:41.970 --> 00:30:43.990
But other than that, yeah, it was kind of

538
00:30:44.375 --> 00:30:46.155
kind of an average childhood. Yeah.

539
00:30:46.935 --> 00:30:47.435
So

540
00:30:47.975 --> 00:30:49.595
so I'm getting I'm getting the picture.

541
00:30:51.825 --> 00:30:52.325
So

542
00:31:00.010 --> 00:31:07.789
What I'm sensing like, and what you've mentioned is, like, that the survivor's guilt and, like, maybe you didn't have the courage and maybe you should have said, like,

543
00:31:08.250 --> 00:31:08.750
I

544
00:31:09.450 --> 00:31:10.750
I'd invite you just

545
00:31:12.135 --> 00:31:13.755
let go of that

546
00:31:15.175 --> 00:31:18.635
completely. Like, you're a fucking you're a fucking kid.

547
00:31:19.175 --> 00:31:19.915
Right? Like,

548
00:31:20.535 --> 00:31:24.615
if you'd spoken up, if you'd done something, chances are you would have gotten in trouble.

549
00:31:24.615 --> 00:31:27.210
It wouldn't have made anything better. Right? And now it's

550
00:31:28.250 --> 00:31:30.830
that that was part of your environment is like,

551
00:31:33.370 --> 00:31:34.809
this is fucked up. This sucks.

552
00:31:34.809 --> 00:31:39.230
Like, you everything inside of you was telling you some this is not good. This is not normal.

553
00:31:39.289 --> 00:31:44.475
But, also, like, this is normal. Right? Like, this is For us. How it is here.

554
00:31:44.475 --> 00:31:48.075
Like, well, I don't know. Yeah. And, like, and, like, you're looking back.

555
00:31:48.075 --> 00:31:52.715
You're like, well, maybe I could have done something, but, also, like, you fucking couldn't. Right?

556
00:31:52.715 --> 00:31:53.215
Like,

557
00:31:54.130 --> 00:31:55.190
you fucking could.

558
00:31:55.570 --> 00:31:57.669
Yeah. Your job is not your responsibility.

559
00:31:58.610 --> 00:31:59.110
Your

560
00:31:59.730 --> 00:32:03.169
your like, chances are if you'd done something, you would have been in trouble.

561
00:32:03.169 --> 00:32:06.049
It wouldn't actually have made anything fucking better. So

562
00:32:06.610 --> 00:32:07.110
Yeah.

563
00:32:07.410 --> 00:32:08.230
I mean, true.

564
00:32:08.530 --> 00:32:12.695
True. This is your brother's karma. I'm so sorry he had to go through that.

565
00:32:13.075 --> 00:32:13.575
Yeah.

566
00:32:13.875 --> 00:32:14.855
That's his journey.

567
00:32:15.235 --> 00:32:16.514
This is your journey. Like

568
00:32:17.475 --> 00:32:19.014
No. You did

569
00:32:19.715 --> 00:32:20.855
you did your thing.

570
00:32:21.570 --> 00:32:22.210
One of the,

571
00:32:23.809 --> 00:32:25.909
one of the the takeaways from NLP

572
00:32:26.929 --> 00:32:34.545
that is good reminder for me when I talk like, I don't really talk about this, but when I think about it or if it comes up is, like,

573
00:32:35.025 --> 00:32:39.425
everyone's doing the best they can with the resources they have available. Oh, yeah.

574
00:32:39.425 --> 00:32:40.885
So it's helped me.

575
00:32:41.345 --> 00:32:44.885
I mean, there was, like, a period of time. There was, like, a lot of anger. Like, my papa

576
00:32:45.745 --> 00:32:47.285
passed away when I was 16.

577
00:32:48.010 --> 00:32:51.309
And ever since then, there's definitely been a pretty big divide.

578
00:32:51.690 --> 00:32:52.590
You know? Like,

579
00:32:52.970 --> 00:32:55.630
she's there, but it's, like, major holidays,

580
00:32:56.490 --> 00:32:58.590
couple text a year sort of thing.

581
00:32:59.289 --> 00:33:06.804
But, you know, there is a period of time where it's like we kinda kept this in my my words, like, this facade going that everything was okay and normal.

582
00:33:06.804 --> 00:33:08.345
But once my papa passed,

583
00:33:08.804 --> 00:33:10.825
and I really had a lot of love for him,

584
00:33:11.205 --> 00:33:13.625
there was a gap of time where there was so much anger.

585
00:33:14.245 --> 00:33:15.304
Like, how the fuck

586
00:33:15.740 --> 00:33:18.800
how the fuck does she just go on with life? As if, like

587
00:33:19.260 --> 00:33:19.920
you know?

588
00:33:20.460 --> 00:33:26.620
And so going through NLP has really helped, and I think there's still some some work to do there, of course.

589
00:33:26.620 --> 00:33:28.080
There probably always is.

590
00:33:29.375 --> 00:33:35.395
I've I've released a lot of that, you know, because it's like at the end of the day, if people really knew how to be the absolute best parent

591
00:33:36.015 --> 00:33:38.515
and person, you would think they would do it.

592
00:33:38.815 --> 00:33:41.455
You know? So what if she just didn't have the tools and resources?

593
00:33:41.455 --> 00:33:46.870
Like, I know very little of her upbringing, but I know there was abuse on her end, you know, to a certain extent.

594
00:33:47.090 --> 00:33:47.750
So it's

595
00:33:48.370 --> 00:33:50.549
like, I've released so much of that

596
00:33:51.250 --> 00:33:55.909
Mhmm. That it's it is relieving. Because before, I was just angry. I was so angry.

597
00:33:56.375 --> 00:33:59.035
And I'm just like, it is it is what it is, and

598
00:33:59.495 --> 00:34:02.475
I'm grown now. You know? Like, I can make different choices.

599
00:34:03.175 --> 00:34:03.675
Totally.

600
00:34:04.135 --> 00:34:08.875
Yeah. And, of course, like, nobody nobody starts to do like like,

601
00:34:09.489 --> 00:34:09.930
woman

602
00:34:10.370 --> 00:34:12.870
child girl grows up in the most loving,

603
00:34:13.250 --> 00:34:18.790
beautiful family. She's nourished and supported and challenged. She's just the right balance by

604
00:34:19.090 --> 00:34:20.070
mom being

605
00:34:20.690 --> 00:34:21.750
divine mother

606
00:34:22.050 --> 00:34:23.510
and dad being divine

607
00:34:23.875 --> 00:34:25.235
father, and then, like, boom.

608
00:34:25.235 --> 00:34:29.235
And then one day, she's like, let me beat the shit out of this adopted boy.

609
00:34:29.235 --> 00:34:35.094
Like, that doesn't fucking happen. Does it? It does not fucking happen. You know? Nope.

610
00:34:35.875 --> 00:34:36.375
No.

611
00:34:36.929 --> 00:34:37.429
Yeah.

612
00:34:37.889 --> 00:34:43.329
Bless her soul. Like, she's she's had a tough fucking life, and this this is her way of coping.

613
00:34:43.329 --> 00:34:49.109
And I'm so sorry you had to witness this. You I'm so sorry I had to, you know, happen to your your

614
00:34:49.409 --> 00:34:49.909
brother,

615
00:34:50.495 --> 00:34:51.155
all of

616
00:34:51.455 --> 00:34:52.515
that. What I'm

617
00:34:53.295 --> 00:34:55.715
picturing is that that girl, Nikki,

618
00:34:56.975 --> 00:34:57.475
probably

619
00:34:59.535 --> 00:35:00.675
grew up feeling

620
00:35:01.535 --> 00:35:04.595
that she wasn't really it wasn't a safe environment.

621
00:35:05.720 --> 00:35:07.339
Oh, correct. Yeah. I definitely

622
00:35:07.720 --> 00:35:11.500
sense that. Even with all the good and fun stuff, there's still kinda that eerie

623
00:35:12.280 --> 00:35:12.780
eeriness

624
00:35:13.160 --> 00:35:18.520
when you're around. Like Right. Something's gonna pop off. Like, I'm kinda just waiting for it.

625
00:35:18.520 --> 00:35:24.045
You know? Always waiting for the for the other shoe to drop. Like, the, yeah, hyper vigilant.

626
00:35:24.905 --> 00:35:25.964
Yeah. Facts.

627
00:35:26.505 --> 00:35:27.005
Facts.

628
00:35:27.785 --> 00:35:28.285
Yeah.

629
00:35:28.585 --> 00:35:29.484
Crazy stuff.

630
00:35:30.825 --> 00:35:31.325
Yeah.

631
00:35:33.385 --> 00:35:33.885
So

632
00:35:38.370 --> 00:35:40.390
I think what I'm sensing for you

633
00:35:42.290 --> 00:35:42.790
is

634
00:35:43.250 --> 00:35:44.150
is, like,

635
00:35:49.815 --> 00:35:52.315
What I'm sensing is this, like, this

636
00:35:55.335 --> 00:35:56.315
playing small

637
00:35:57.495 --> 00:35:57.995
energy.

638
00:36:01.220 --> 00:36:02.359
I mean, that resonates.

639
00:36:03.220 --> 00:36:05.799
Yeah. Right? Yeah. I mean, yeah.

640
00:36:07.460 --> 00:36:07.960
Yeah.

641
00:36:09.299 --> 00:36:10.280
I think you're

642
00:36:11.619 --> 00:36:13.319
I think you're way underestimating

643
00:36:13.859 --> 00:36:14.359
yourself.

644
00:36:18.485 --> 00:36:19.785
Yeah. I mean, that's

645
00:36:21.045 --> 00:36:22.665
that's not the first time.

646
00:36:23.285 --> 00:36:25.945
I've been told something kind of along those lines.

647
00:36:26.325 --> 00:36:28.985
Mhmm. And yet I'm still doing it. So that's interesting.

648
00:36:29.390 --> 00:36:34.450
No. I'm yeah. And and and that's but that's also part of the pattern of, like, yo.

649
00:36:34.590 --> 00:36:36.350
Like, oh, but why am I doing that?

650
00:36:36.350 --> 00:36:40.510
Well, I mean, you're doing it because there's still a party that believes it. So, like Right. Right.

651
00:36:40.510 --> 00:36:42.050
I mean, that's that's Hello.

652
00:36:42.990 --> 00:36:44.050
So, like,

653
00:36:47.485 --> 00:36:49.425
take a moment to just sit with,

654
00:36:50.525 --> 00:36:53.105
like, and really like, actually, let's do this. Like,

655
00:36:55.325 --> 00:36:55.825
take

656
00:36:56.125 --> 00:36:57.425
seven year old Nikki

657
00:36:58.900 --> 00:36:59.880
in your arms

658
00:37:00.820 --> 00:37:01.320
Okay.

659
00:37:01.700 --> 00:37:03.880
And just sit with her for a moment.

660
00:37:05.460 --> 00:37:05.960
And

661
00:37:07.540 --> 00:37:11.880
just shine so much love and so much light

662
00:37:12.625 --> 00:37:13.925
into that little girl

663
00:37:17.025 --> 00:37:23.045
and give her hold her make her feel safe the way she nobody ever made her fucking feel safe.

664
00:37:25.230 --> 00:37:30.350
No mean nobody made her feel valued. Right? Your mom has you, and then she's like, yeah.

665
00:37:30.350 --> 00:37:33.950
I'm like, I can't deal with you. I gotta fucking take care of work and shit.

666
00:37:33.950 --> 00:37:38.450
I don't have time to do this bullshit. Let me put you up with my stepmom who

667
00:37:38.985 --> 00:37:43.945
abused the fuck out of me because that's gonna be great for you, daughter, because that's how much I value you.

668
00:37:43.945 --> 00:37:44.685
Right? Like

669
00:37:48.345 --> 00:37:49.085
That might

670
00:37:50.105 --> 00:37:52.125
you know, what does he need to hear?

671
00:37:53.160 --> 00:37:54.220
What's the truth

672
00:37:55.400 --> 00:37:58.940
that this seven year old Nikki needs to hear right now?

673
00:38:02.119 --> 00:38:02.619
Shit.

674
00:38:03.960 --> 00:38:05.819
She gets to hear that she's not average.

675
00:38:06.515 --> 00:38:07.255
Like, she's

676
00:38:07.715 --> 00:38:10.375
not she's not average by any means.

677
00:38:12.035 --> 00:38:13.415
She's actually pretty extraordinary,

678
00:38:14.035 --> 00:38:17.015
to be honest. I've dropped it pretty in that sense.

679
00:38:18.355 --> 00:38:18.855
Extraordinary

680
00:38:19.795 --> 00:38:20.295
period.

681
00:38:21.075 --> 00:38:21.575
Mhmm.

682
00:38:22.130 --> 00:38:23.830
She really is. Even at seven,

683
00:38:24.290 --> 00:38:26.310
there's that sense of that

684
00:38:26.770 --> 00:38:27.510
for sure.

685
00:38:30.050 --> 00:38:33.030
Yeah. And we got us. You know? Like,

686
00:38:33.970 --> 00:38:35.110
we got us.

687
00:38:35.915 --> 00:38:36.575
I had

688
00:38:39.915 --> 00:38:41.135
me. Yeah. Like,

689
00:38:43.355 --> 00:38:47.215
we we we are we are an amazing human.

690
00:38:47.810 --> 00:38:50.470
I am an amazing human, like, for real.

691
00:38:50.850 --> 00:38:54.390
Yeah. For real. For real real. For real for real.

692
00:38:54.850 --> 00:38:55.350
Yeah.

693
00:38:56.690 --> 00:38:57.190
Yeah.

694
00:38:57.570 --> 00:38:58.070
Dang.

695
00:38:59.010 --> 00:38:59.510
Yeah.

696
00:39:01.194 --> 00:39:05.375
I didn't know where we were going with all this today, but, man, like, that feels, like, so,

697
00:39:06.474 --> 00:39:07.535
like, empowering.

698
00:39:08.155 --> 00:39:10.895
Yeah. Like, just to be able to say it and feel, like,

699
00:39:12.395 --> 00:39:18.470
proud of saying it, it's like yeah. It's so it's Yeah. You can I can? I can hide myself up.

700
00:39:18.470 --> 00:39:22.870
You know what I'm saying? Like But it's not that's not you're not letting yourself up.

701
00:39:22.870 --> 00:39:24.490
You're just speaking the fucking truth.

702
00:39:25.190 --> 00:39:25.690
Okay.

703
00:39:26.470 --> 00:39:27.450
Period. Look.

704
00:39:28.795 --> 00:39:31.775
Yeah. Yeah. That and that's the thing is, like,

705
00:39:33.675 --> 00:39:35.375
it's so crazy that's, like,

706
00:39:35.995 --> 00:39:37.695
I've sensed that truth,

707
00:39:38.075 --> 00:39:41.435
and this is, like, the first time I feel okay saying it. Like

708
00:39:43.550 --> 00:39:44.930
Can you just, like yeah.

709
00:39:45.470 --> 00:39:49.330
Just let that wash over you. Like, really take it in. Just own it.

710
00:39:49.710 --> 00:39:52.290
Claim it. That's just fucking true.

711
00:39:54.270 --> 00:39:54.770
Yeah.

712
00:39:56.349 --> 00:39:56.849
Yeah.

713
00:39:57.390 --> 00:39:58.770
Do you feel it in your belly?

714
00:40:00.405 --> 00:40:00.905
Feel

715
00:40:01.925 --> 00:40:06.025
I kinda feel I don't know why. I feel it in my chest a little bit. Yeah.

716
00:40:07.125 --> 00:40:07.625
Yeah.

717
00:40:08.005 --> 00:40:11.865
I'm asking about the belly because, like, we tend to hold have, like, a holding

718
00:40:12.565 --> 00:40:13.385
in the belly.

719
00:40:14.645 --> 00:40:15.750
So it's just like, let

720
00:40:16.450 --> 00:40:17.830
Like, let's release. Relax

721
00:40:18.210 --> 00:40:20.230
into it. Release into it. You know?

722
00:40:20.530 --> 00:40:21.030
Yeah.

723
00:40:21.490 --> 00:40:27.350
Yeah. Be somebody. You're not trying to be go somewhere and become something. You just Yeah.

724
00:40:27.650 --> 00:40:29.350
Owning who you already are.

725
00:40:29.955 --> 00:40:32.455
Yeah. Just am. Like, I just am.

726
00:40:32.915 --> 00:40:33.415
Yeah.

727
00:40:35.075 --> 00:40:35.575
Yeah.

728
00:40:36.195 --> 00:40:39.175
You're fucking extraordinary. Not just a little bit.

729
00:40:40.035 --> 00:40:45.904
Yeah. Fuck that pretty a little bit. Like, just at the end of the day, like, I'm liter

730
00:40:46.305 --> 00:40:47.907
I am extraordinary. Like

731
00:40:48.307 --> 00:40:53.514
You're fucking extraordinary. Yeah. You're making fucking Jones. Okay. You're making fucking Jones.

732
00:40:53.514 --> 00:40:55.295
Let's go. For real.

733
00:40:55.595 --> 00:40:58.575
For real. Like, I have such great qualities.

734
00:40:59.194 --> 00:41:00.575
I have such a great heart.

735
00:41:01.355 --> 00:41:01.675
Like

736
00:41:02.315 --> 00:41:03.535
Yeah. Hello.

737
00:41:04.075 --> 00:41:07.535
And I and I want you to get, like, really at a soul level.

738
00:41:09.210 --> 00:41:09.710
Right?

739
00:41:10.010 --> 00:41:16.190
Quality's heart. Those are great. I'm for it. I agree with you. And just at a soul level,

740
00:41:17.130 --> 00:41:18.670
you come into this world,

741
00:41:19.290 --> 00:41:22.670
into a mom who's abusive, who doesn't have fucking time for you,

742
00:41:23.155 --> 00:41:27.255
puts you with an abusive stepmom watching all this abuse. Like like,

743
00:41:27.635 --> 00:41:30.695
that's your soul chose this to show you

744
00:41:31.155 --> 00:41:34.295
to let you experience just how fucking strong you are.

745
00:41:34.755 --> 00:41:35.255
Right?

746
00:41:35.990 --> 00:41:38.170
Like and that that is,

747
00:41:39.030 --> 00:41:42.490
like, as a soul, you don't have to accomplish anything.

748
00:41:42.869 --> 00:41:45.109
You don't have to demonstrate it. You don't have to achieve.

749
00:41:45.109 --> 00:41:47.210
You don't have to, like, embody, like, whatever.

750
00:41:47.589 --> 00:41:51.530
Add a soul level. This is who the fuck you are.

751
00:41:51.965 --> 00:41:54.545
Yeah. Nobody can take this away from you.

752
00:41:54.925 --> 00:41:55.425
Right?

753
00:41:56.685 --> 00:41:57.665
It's just you.

754
00:41:58.605 --> 00:42:01.585
Yeah. There's nothing to be taken. It's it's it's me.

755
00:42:02.205 --> 00:42:04.625
And the fact that you you were there,

756
00:42:05.170 --> 00:42:07.970
you're like, okay. I'm watching this. I'm observing.

757
00:42:07.970 --> 00:42:12.710
I'm not gonna jump in and try to make things better or, like, that's not my job here. Like Mhmm.

758
00:42:12.930 --> 00:42:19.490
There's a part of me that maybe thinks I should, whatever, like, judging myself or or or second guessing after the fact or whatever.

759
00:42:19.490 --> 00:42:21.915
But, like, at a solo, you got in there, like, okay.

760
00:42:21.915 --> 00:42:24.075
This is kinda weird, but, like, I'm gonna do my thing.

761
00:42:24.075 --> 00:42:28.795
And then you go I'm gonna go go to LA and do my fucking thing, and I'll figure the fuck out.

762
00:42:28.795 --> 00:42:31.695
I don't have nobody's giving me no money. I'm gonna just

763
00:42:32.795 --> 00:42:36.470
get my own fucking education over here. Right? Yeah. Like

764
00:42:37.250 --> 00:42:37.830
Yeah. Yeah.

765
00:42:39.490 --> 00:42:40.630
What the fuck?

766
00:42:41.090 --> 00:42:41.670
I'm like,

767
00:42:42.290 --> 00:42:45.650
for yeah. I can help you do social media. I can help organize some things.

768
00:42:45.650 --> 00:42:48.550
Let's create a VA business. Let's do, like, let's get into

769
00:42:48.865 --> 00:42:53.845
personal development and NLP and, like, all the things, like, holy fuck. You know what? Yeah.

770
00:42:55.025 --> 00:42:56.085
Like yeah.

771
00:42:56.785 --> 00:42:58.565
And you know what? Like, even

772
00:42:59.185 --> 00:43:03.045
even at a at at this soul level, like, to my core,

773
00:43:03.819 --> 00:43:04.559
I know

774
00:43:05.500 --> 00:43:10.140
how much I've impacted other lives too. Just just being me. You know?

775
00:43:10.140 --> 00:43:12.559
And it's so cool at this point. Like,

776
00:43:13.579 --> 00:43:15.280
it's so cool at this point. Like,

777
00:43:16.425 --> 00:43:18.125
me and my mom are like this.

778
00:43:18.425 --> 00:43:22.745
You know? Like, I know she's had her own challenges and, like and she took care of me, though.

779
00:43:22.745 --> 00:43:26.845
Like, she was my dog. Like, we we've always been this. And That's so beautiful.

780
00:43:27.145 --> 00:43:29.165
It is. And it's, like, for to even

781
00:43:29.545 --> 00:43:31.225
kind of lead by example

782
00:43:32.000 --> 00:43:35.140
Mhmm. Of me developing myself, of me continuously

783
00:43:35.520 --> 00:43:36.400
wanting to be a

784
00:43:37.359 --> 00:43:39.299
me being a better version of myself,

785
00:43:40.000 --> 00:43:44.579
how that rippled into, like, how much she's evolved and grown. Like,

786
00:43:45.365 --> 00:43:48.244
she is so not that 19 year old with a baby.

787
00:43:48.244 --> 00:43:52.905
Like, I mean, obviously, but, like What a fucking blessing you are in your life.

788
00:43:55.444 --> 00:43:57.785
Fuck. Yeah. Like Yeah.

789
00:43:58.085 --> 00:44:01.440
Yeah. Yeah. In the best way possible. Like, yes.

790
00:44:02.620 --> 00:44:03.120
Yeah.

791
00:44:03.420 --> 00:44:07.340
And what a blessing she is in your life. Without her, you wouldn't be here. Shit.

792
00:44:07.340 --> 00:44:08.560
She's fucking awesome.

793
00:44:08.860 --> 00:44:12.560
What a blessing she is in my life. Without your mom, I wouldn't have this conversation.

794
00:44:14.035 --> 00:44:15.095
Yeah. Yeah.

795
00:44:15.555 --> 00:44:16.615
Yeah. Yeah.

796
00:44:17.275 --> 00:44:17.775
Yeah.

797
00:44:18.435 --> 00:44:18.935
Yeah.

798
00:44:21.075 --> 00:44:24.215
So why would you feel like to build your business from that energy?

799
00:44:26.195 --> 00:44:26.695
Fuck.

800
00:44:28.560 --> 00:44:31.540
I mean, the the way I put it into words is, like, there's no roof.

801
00:44:32.400 --> 00:44:35.300
There's no limit. There's there's endless possibilities.

802
00:44:35.600 --> 00:44:35.840
There's

803
00:44:39.040 --> 00:44:43.460
it's gonna be fucking fun. Like, that's the thing. It's, like, my life is, like,

804
00:44:45.974 --> 00:44:50.875
already amazing, and it's only going to get better. Like Yeah. Everything I've envisioned

805
00:44:51.734 --> 00:44:54.134
is going is coming to fruition. Like

806
00:44:54.535 --> 00:44:58.214
Yeah. All I get to do is, like, embody this. What's happening right now?

807
00:44:58.214 --> 00:45:02.580
Like, step into every day with this. Mhmm. Bitch just can't tell me shit. Okay?

808
00:45:02.580 --> 00:45:06.500
Can't no one tell me nothing. Like, I'm just we're doing it. Okay?

809
00:45:06.500 --> 00:45:11.220
We're we're trusting it and we're going for it. And I already know it's going to be amazing.

810
00:45:11.220 --> 00:45:17.655
Like, I know that. I I never do anything less than amazing. Like, it's always top tier. I know that.

811
00:45:17.655 --> 00:45:18.155
Like

812
00:45:19.015 --> 00:45:19.515
Yeah.

813
00:45:19.975 --> 00:45:20.715
No pressure.

814
00:45:21.255 --> 00:45:21.915
No pressure.

815
00:45:23.495 --> 00:45:29.130
And I want you to really get that no matter it doesn't matter what the marketplace

816
00:45:29.990 --> 00:45:31.370
place says or does.

817
00:45:31.670 --> 00:45:35.930
Like, no matter how many people buy your shirt or sign up for your commute, whatever,

818
00:45:36.310 --> 00:45:39.165
has no bearing on what we're talking about here.

819
00:45:39.965 --> 00:45:43.345
Yeah. You don't need anybody to validate you.

820
00:45:43.645 --> 00:45:44.705
You you don't No.

821
00:45:45.805 --> 00:45:51.505
Anybody to prove like, nobody can prove or disprove this because this is just it's just true,

822
00:45:51.950 --> 00:45:53.410
what we're talking about here.

823
00:45:53.630 --> 00:45:57.550
And then we gotta like, then there's the the the marketing, and what do we say to whom?

824
00:45:57.550 --> 00:45:59.410
And that that that all that. That's just mechanics.

825
00:46:01.150 --> 00:46:04.770
Just like physics. None of that has any bearing on you

826
00:46:05.675 --> 00:46:07.775
and your work Yeah. Like, your

827
00:46:08.555 --> 00:46:09.375
your being.

828
00:46:11.675 --> 00:46:12.175
Facts.

829
00:46:12.955 --> 00:46:14.895
Yeah. Facts. That has look.

830
00:46:16.795 --> 00:46:18.815
Facts. Because I'm gonna be me regardless.

831
00:46:19.400 --> 00:46:23.400
Like, I'm I'm gonna be me and I'm gonna stay me regardless, and I already know.

832
00:46:23.400 --> 00:46:27.720
Like, I am extraordinary. So I really don't need that's the that's the beautiful thing.

833
00:46:27.720 --> 00:46:30.780
And what's coming to me right now is, like, me being me,

834
00:46:31.480 --> 00:46:32.300
I attract

835
00:46:33.535 --> 00:46:35.935
all things that are made for me. You know what I'm saying?

836
00:46:35.935 --> 00:46:41.075
Which includes a network of people that want to be around me. Right? Like, I literally am a light.

837
00:46:41.215 --> 00:46:45.215
I am a light, and it's like people are attracted to the light. They wanna be a part of that.

838
00:46:45.215 --> 00:46:46.355
Like Mhmm.

839
00:46:47.140 --> 00:46:51.000
How easy is that? Say fuck the marketing. Fuck all the the like you said, the mechanics.

840
00:46:51.540 --> 00:46:57.000
Mhmm. Just stepping into this being my full, true, authentic self unapologetically.

841
00:46:58.180 --> 00:46:58.680
Mhmm.

842
00:46:59.700 --> 00:47:02.200
Yeah. Yeah. Unstoppable. Quite literally.

843
00:47:02.565 --> 00:47:04.825
Like Exactly. No one can tell me shit.

844
00:47:05.365 --> 00:47:07.464
They don't need to. I don't need them to. Yeah.

845
00:47:08.724 --> 00:47:10.825
The hip hop personal development queen.

846
00:47:11.204 --> 00:47:11.704
Yay.

847
00:47:12.244 --> 00:47:12.744
Whatever.

848
00:47:14.165 --> 00:47:16.505
But I mean, like but, like, really, like,

849
00:47:16.860 --> 00:47:22.460
own that part of your story because it's so cool, and it's so powerful, and so it's so different.

850
00:47:22.460 --> 00:47:29.100
Like, the struggles, the the the hardship, the and your determination, your grit, you're like, I'm just gonna figure it the fuck out.

851
00:47:29.100 --> 00:47:30.625
And, like, that that,

852
00:47:31.005 --> 00:47:35.984
like, lightness that you have about you, the attitude, it's it's so endearing. It's so attractive.

853
00:47:36.204 --> 00:47:37.265
It's really cool.

854
00:47:37.805 --> 00:47:42.224
Thanks. It feels good too, just being proud of that. Not feeling like I have

855
00:47:42.525 --> 00:47:43.265
to shrink.

856
00:47:43.885 --> 00:47:44.785
Yeah. Exactly.

857
00:47:45.099 --> 00:47:50.800
Although, I do think, like, I the one thing you're probably missing is, like, a college level course in,

858
00:47:52.700 --> 00:47:53.200
central

859
00:47:53.900 --> 00:47:58.380
African tribal gender studies. I think that would be the entire Yeah. For sure.

860
00:47:58.380 --> 00:48:04.355
If you only had that, that you would be set. You know? One thing I'm missing. Yeah. Darn. Darn.

861
00:48:04.355 --> 00:48:06.995
But, you know, I can do anything. So who fucking knows?

862
00:48:06.995 --> 00:48:10.855
This time next year, I might just fucking sign up. I might be in that course.

863
00:48:11.235 --> 00:48:12.455
Yeah. Just because I can.

864
00:48:13.315 --> 00:48:13.815
Yeah.

865
00:48:14.275 --> 00:48:14.775
Man,

866
00:48:15.460 --> 00:48:17.880
how cool. I feel so, like, rejuvenated.

867
00:48:18.660 --> 00:48:24.100
Like, I already felt really great coming on to this call, and I'm like, bow, like, even more. Like

868
00:48:25.940 --> 00:48:26.440
Yeah.

869
00:48:26.820 --> 00:48:28.785
This is so fun. Yeah.

870
00:48:29.245 --> 00:48:30.785
This is so cool right now.

871
00:48:31.165 --> 00:48:31.665
Yeah.

872
00:48:33.805 --> 00:48:37.825
How are you feeling? Like, oh my gosh. You just go and you just be spitting all these gems

873
00:48:38.205 --> 00:48:41.665
and and get people all, like, feeling good. Like, what?

874
00:48:42.090 --> 00:48:46.510
I live the best life. It's a it's a I can't lie. It's a it's amazing. Yeah.

875
00:48:47.050 --> 00:48:47.550
Man,

876
00:48:47.850 --> 00:48:52.270
great to be on the receiving side of you having the best life for sure.

877
00:48:53.370 --> 00:48:54.110
For sure.

878
00:48:54.935 --> 00:48:58.555
Man. So cool. It's like when you build from this energy, like,

879
00:48:59.175 --> 00:49:00.795
it's a whole different game.

880
00:49:01.255 --> 00:49:05.994
And, like, because this is like what what someone you have is of us do, we feel like we have to prove,

881
00:49:06.295 --> 00:49:10.430
and we have to earn our right, and we have to, like, this step and this step and this step.

882
00:49:10.430 --> 00:49:13.710
Like, fuck that shit. Like, just step into the power of who you are.

883
00:49:13.710 --> 00:49:16.750
There's still, like, the business side, the marketing, the logistics side.

884
00:49:16.750 --> 00:49:19.470
Like, we gotta, like over time, we'll, like, build our

885
00:49:20.190 --> 00:49:23.725
like, get better at things and build our business, all that stuff. That's fine. That's Yeah.

886
00:49:23.805 --> 00:49:26.385
That's cool. But, like, we start from the energy

887
00:49:26.925 --> 00:49:31.965
of, like, claiming being the fucking one. You're the one they've been waiting for. Yeah.

888
00:49:31.965 --> 00:49:35.185
Like You're the one humanity has been waiting for, Nikki.

889
00:49:35.645 --> 00:49:36.145
Man.

890
00:49:36.470 --> 00:49:37.849
You're the fucking one.

891
00:49:39.430 --> 00:49:43.910
And just being proud of that. Like, I literally am. Like, I I feel so good.

892
00:49:43.910 --> 00:49:46.970
Like, I'm proud of like, I am the one. Like Yeah.

893
00:49:47.589 --> 00:49:48.490
Yeah. Hello?

894
00:49:49.005 --> 00:49:54.625
And you can and then, like, you'll find, like, having, like, a low ticket membership is great, and

895
00:49:55.325 --> 00:49:57.484
that can be, like, mass.

896
00:49:57.484 --> 00:50:01.244
You can have lots of people there, but then the money is not in the low ticket membership.

897
00:50:01.244 --> 00:50:03.369
The money is in the back end of that. Yeah.

898
00:50:03.369 --> 00:50:07.230
And the higher ticket stuff that you do on the back end of that. But, like, it's awesome to have it

899
00:50:07.530 --> 00:50:08.510
as a fun then.

900
00:50:08.810 --> 00:50:11.230
Yeah. You know? And I like the thought of, like,

901
00:50:12.810 --> 00:50:13.850
you know, more cash flow.

902
00:50:13.850 --> 00:50:18.065
I think that's also something too, because this energy makes me excited for what I want.

903
00:50:18.065 --> 00:50:19.925
You know, when you're when I'm

904
00:50:20.545 --> 00:50:24.005
when I've been surrounded by people and their vision isn't as big.

905
00:50:24.305 --> 00:50:25.205
Mhmm. Right?

906
00:50:25.585 --> 00:50:29.845
And I'm a because I don't claim this shit now. Okay? In the past up until recently,

907
00:50:30.330 --> 00:50:34.030
I would shrink my vision to fit into what everyone around me

908
00:50:34.490 --> 00:50:34.810
Mhmm.

909
00:50:35.610 --> 00:50:37.950
Thought I should have, I guess. Whatever.

910
00:50:38.330 --> 00:50:40.590
And so your real vision? What's the truth?

911
00:50:40.970 --> 00:50:42.190
The truth is, like,

912
00:50:43.335 --> 00:50:47.035
I wanna not have to fucking work, and it's because I've built

913
00:50:48.055 --> 00:50:52.395
I've built this structure, these income streams that can run themselves.

914
00:50:52.455 --> 00:50:56.135
And the collective is one of those. You know what I'm saying? Like, I don't have to show that.

915
00:50:56.135 --> 00:51:02.440
How much how much money do you wanna make? Are you joking? Like, 7 figures. End goal, $7.07

916
00:51:02.440 --> 00:51:02.920
figure

917
00:51:03.560 --> 00:51:08.140
I'll say 7 figure net worth, not even revenue. Like, when I say big picture, like,

918
00:51:08.440 --> 00:51:11.900
that is really where I wanna go. 7 figures a month?

919
00:51:12.635 --> 00:51:14.734
Well, I was going annually. 7 figure

920
00:51:15.115 --> 00:51:18.335
7 figure net annually. $7.07 figures a day?

921
00:51:18.714 --> 00:51:24.494
Oh, shit. I mean, shit. I ain't gonna say no. I ain't gonna say no to no 7 figures a day.

922
00:51:24.875 --> 00:51:26.895
But shit. I mean, shit.

923
00:51:27.200 --> 00:51:30.720
I was thinking annually, but at this point, why the fuck does it have to just be annual?

924
00:51:30.720 --> 00:51:31.760
I just said there's no ceiling.

925
00:51:31.760 --> 00:51:35.940
I mean, there are people there are totally people who are making a million bucks a month or more in coaching.

926
00:51:36.560 --> 00:51:39.360
And honestly, Calvin, I'm dead ass going to be one of them.

927
00:51:39.360 --> 00:51:42.340
Like, that really is not even in question. Like, I can literally.

928
00:51:43.575 --> 00:51:48.395
So let's do it. Let's fucking let's fucking go. Let's go. Let's go. Yeah.

929
00:51:49.974 --> 00:51:52.395
Literally. Let's go. A month. Yeah.

930
00:51:53.015 --> 00:51:56.610
Are you joking? Like, life life is already great. Life is already a blessing.

931
00:52:00.610 --> 00:52:02.310
Fucking better. Making that

932
00:52:02.770 --> 00:52:03.350
the life

933
00:52:03.730 --> 00:52:06.870
that I get to create for myself, the people I love,

934
00:52:07.250 --> 00:52:09.910
the fun we get to have, the joy we bring in.

935
00:52:10.290 --> 00:52:10.790
Yeah.

936
00:52:11.295 --> 00:52:15.795
Like, it's a tool. That money is a tool to live a beautiful,

937
00:52:16.815 --> 00:52:17.315
safe,

938
00:52:17.694 --> 00:52:18.194
secure,

939
00:52:18.895 --> 00:52:20.835
free life. Like,

940
00:52:21.934 --> 00:52:22.434
yeah.

941
00:52:22.974 --> 00:52:23.875
Yeah. Yeah.

942
00:52:24.320 --> 00:52:25.780
Let's do it. Let's go.

943
00:52:26.080 --> 00:52:26.580
Let's

944
00:52:28.400 --> 00:52:34.260
go. Another month. It's totally doable. It's totally doable, and you fucking deserve it.

945
00:52:34.640 --> 00:52:39.700
That money is good with you. It's better with you than so many other places that money could go.

946
00:52:40.275 --> 00:52:41.974
Facts. Facts. Mhmm.

947
00:52:42.594 --> 00:52:43.094
Mhmm.

948
00:52:43.714 --> 00:52:45.655
Yeah. Wasn't exciting. Be

949
00:52:46.194 --> 00:52:46.694
completely

950
00:52:47.875 --> 00:52:48.375
transformative

951
00:52:48.755 --> 00:52:53.174
for anybody who chooses to invest with you, like Yeah. On such a deep level.

952
00:52:53.555 --> 00:52:55.015
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

953
00:52:55.390 --> 00:52:58.130
Extremely. Because you got an l NLP certification.

954
00:53:00.109 --> 00:53:05.970
Because you're fucking Nikki fucking Jones. Period. That's why. Period. Point blank. Like

955
00:53:06.510 --> 00:53:07.010
Yeah.

956
00:53:09.165 --> 00:53:10.385
How exciting is this?

957
00:53:12.925 --> 00:53:13.425
Man,

958
00:53:14.365 --> 00:53:18.285
I swear I was I was super happy before this call. For a second there, I was like, alright.

959
00:53:18.285 --> 00:53:21.665
He's losing me. I'm a get a little emotional. And now I'm feeling great again.

960
00:53:22.290 --> 00:53:24.310
I feel a little rollerball. Emotion too.

961
00:53:26.210 --> 00:53:26.950
You know,

962
00:53:27.330 --> 00:53:30.150
let it letting them letting them flow through me

963
00:53:31.250 --> 00:53:34.150
is always worth it. And then that's something I

964
00:53:34.994 --> 00:53:37.795
I do practice, and I get to practice more. You know?

965
00:53:37.795 --> 00:53:41.894
Having having, like, you, having someone to kind of give you that extra push,

966
00:53:42.355 --> 00:53:42.934
you know,

967
00:53:43.555 --> 00:53:45.255
to really tap into, like,

968
00:53:45.714 --> 00:53:49.869
the shit you're not uncovering yourself is, like, always such a blessing.

969
00:53:50.329 --> 00:53:53.049
Mhmm. Like, thank you for, like, thank you for this. I'm like

970
00:53:55.690 --> 00:53:56.829
You're such a sweetheart.

971
00:53:57.450 --> 00:53:57.849
And

972
00:53:58.250 --> 00:53:58.750
Thanks.

973
00:53:59.289 --> 00:54:01.710
Seven year old Nikki is just so

974
00:54:02.035 --> 00:54:03.415
fucking strong and adorable

975
00:54:03.715 --> 00:54:04.535
and extraordinary.

976
00:54:05.555 --> 00:54:09.315
Thanks. She's a little superstar too. Plenty of home videos of just dancing in the

977
00:54:10.595 --> 00:54:15.015
you couldn't tell her shit that you know what I'm saying? Like, I've it's she's always been here.

978
00:54:15.579 --> 00:54:20.380
She's always been here, and now she just gets to fucking break the fuck free. Like, come on. Yeah.

979
00:54:20.380 --> 00:54:21.200
Come on, girl.

980
00:54:21.579 --> 00:54:22.079
Yeah.

981
00:54:24.540 --> 00:54:25.280
You're awesome.

982
00:54:26.940 --> 00:54:28.305
You're awesome. Thank you.

983
00:54:29.105 --> 00:54:32.405
So what do you what do you take with you from today? What do you know is true?

984
00:54:36.145 --> 00:54:37.605
I'm that bitch. Okay?

985
00:54:37.984 --> 00:54:38.484
Like,

986
00:54:39.025 --> 00:54:41.525
I really am extraordinary. And I

987
00:54:41.984 --> 00:54:42.964
this is really

988
00:54:43.390 --> 00:54:49.010
everything I've I've done up until this point has just scratched the surface as far as, like, what's to come.

989
00:54:49.310 --> 00:54:50.930
Mhmm. And I get to

990
00:54:51.310 --> 00:54:54.770
step into every not even every day, every fucking moment

991
00:54:56.190 --> 00:54:56.690
unapologetically

992
00:54:57.150 --> 00:54:57.650
me.

993
00:54:58.905 --> 00:55:03.085
Because I know what I bring to the world. You know what I'm saying? Like, I know

994
00:55:03.945 --> 00:55:05.965
I know how impactful I am

995
00:55:06.745 --> 00:55:08.445
and how much good I do,

996
00:55:09.225 --> 00:55:11.005
and it's only going to get better

997
00:55:11.540 --> 00:55:13.240
just by being myself. Like,

998
00:55:14.580 --> 00:55:18.580
that's that's so fucking easy. Fuck all the mechanics. Fuck learning how to do all this random shit.

999
00:55:18.580 --> 00:55:19.640
I get to just fucking

1000
00:55:20.180 --> 00:55:21.480
show up, be me.

1001
00:55:23.060 --> 00:55:25.925
Yeah. That's the business model that I'm for here.

1002
00:55:25.925 --> 00:55:30.665
Like, that's what the my whole world, Simplero, my coaching, all that stuff is about that. Just

1003
00:55:30.965 --> 00:55:34.185
be fucking you. Get paid to be you. That's it.

1004
00:55:34.645 --> 00:55:35.865
Get paid to be me.

1005
00:55:36.165 --> 00:55:40.640
Yeah. That's life. Like, when you do life right, that's how life works. Yeah. Yeah.

1006
00:55:42.059 --> 00:55:42.559
Fuck

1007
00:55:43.059 --> 00:55:43.559
yeah.

1008
00:55:44.059 --> 00:55:46.539
Yeah. Don't make it hard. Yeah. It it really isn't.

1009
00:55:46.539 --> 00:55:49.819
When you sip when you put it like that, I'm like, oh, shit. Alright. It's simple.

1010
00:55:49.819 --> 00:55:55.385
Don't make it complicated. Just be get paid to be you. Yeah. Yeah. I like that business model. Yeah.

1011
00:55:56.405 --> 00:55:58.325
I like that light blueprint. Okay.

1012
00:55:58.325 --> 00:56:01.925
Like, that's so much better than learning all this different shit. Okay. Like, yeah.

1013
00:56:01.925 --> 00:56:02.825
I could do that.

1014
00:56:03.285 --> 00:56:04.185
I could do that.

1015
00:56:04.485 --> 00:56:06.185
Yeah. Oh, that is awesome.

1016
00:56:06.565 --> 00:56:07.385
That's true.

1017
00:56:07.900 --> 00:56:10.080
Well, thank you so much, Nikki fucking Jones.

1018
00:56:10.940 --> 00:56:11.440
Hey.

1019
00:56:11.940 --> 00:56:12.440
Good.

1020
00:56:12.940 --> 00:56:17.200
Yes. Thank you. Thank you so much. Like, this this has been

1021
00:56:17.980 --> 00:56:22.480
such an amazing time with you. Like, you have no idea. So thank you.

1022
00:56:22.775 --> 00:56:26.615
You're a bright shining light in the world. I'm so grateful to get to spend this time with you.

1023
00:56:26.615 --> 00:56:29.915
It was wonderful to see you in the past couple of days as well in the calls.

1024
00:56:30.375 --> 00:56:34.375
I know. I love Simplero. I'm like, I always hop on your calls. I'm like, in the fall, I'm there.

1025
00:56:34.375 --> 00:56:35.355
I'm there. I'm there.

1026
00:56:36.295 --> 00:56:37.115
I love it.